Weigh In: 285 (Day 3)

Last day.  At least that's the plan.  Day 2 of anything seems to always be the hardest, and I'm glad I got through it.  I was craving wine, and ogling my kid's pizza, but I was mostly feeling like my body needs this sort of "fast" right now, and leaning into that.

Today I pumped up the fats this morning by adding coconut oil to my coffee, and peanut butter to my shake.

So my shake looked like this:

1 Level Life chocolate shake
32 grams peanut butter (no sugar added, just peanut butter)
1/2 cup blueberries

Not bad.  Kept me going until early afternoon, and that was with some cleaning and gardening.    I'm a good portion of the way through my day and am just having my first cup of soup now.  It's really a 2-cup serving.  I'll probably have some sort of protein tonight (more than likely some salmon that I have), more soup, and at least one more shake.

I like that I don't have to think so much about my food.  I know it's waiting for me in the fridge, and I know I can add some low-carb things to keep me level and productive and keep those around me alive and safe from my meltdowns. Hahaha.  I really can't truly fast on water and nothing else, like my husband does.  He says it's good to do sometimes.  There are many days he simply won't eat all day at work, and then will eat when he gets home.  I'm not able to function like that.  But I can function like this.  It might be something to add to my arsenal.

I'll admit, I've been off the last few days and don't have to go back to work tomorrow, either, so it makes this a whole heck of a lot easier.  I'm not sure if I could do this while working or not.  We shall see.  I'm sure it will be harder the next time around, so I'm trying not to get my hopes up too terribly much.  But I can't expect everything to be easy.  I remember doing South Beach Diet and not making it the whole two weeks.  I made it a week.  The second time I felt so cruddy I didn't even make it a week, if I remember correctly.

Anyway, I feel good today.  So far.

DAY 4 UPDATE:

The scale read 284 today.  All in all I'm down 6 pounds in 3 days.

I made it through my 3-day kickstart.  Still would say that the 2nd day was the absolute worst.  It's the 4th day now as I update this and I'm still kind of weaning off the shakes and soup.  I had a shake for breakfast and then some soup later, and a shake.  I also had some pork and a sweet potato (I had a sweet potato last night).  I might have more soup later, but my calories are pretty much used up for today.

I don't expect much more from this, to be honest.  I know that I have some celebrations this weekend, and it's going to be hard to keep 284, let alone go down from there.  But I'm hoping that I'll be way more cautious and intentional over the weekend, in hopes that by my next weigh in (Wednesday), I'll be at 284 still.  I might have to make another batch of soup, though.  I think I will still keep eating that through tomorrow, and then probably some also on Saturday to fill up.  It's easy.

Again, part of what I like best is that I'm just not thinking about it.

However, I have to say that --for me-- it is incredibly difficult to focus on myself.  The last three days I've not had my normal energy.  Yesterday I felt pretty good, but I just feel a bit slow.  Maybe I'm consciously trying to slow down.  But I just can't keep up with housework and everyone's schedules and everything else when I'm trying to better myself.

I can see there's definitely a challenge trying to figure out how to take care of everyone else and myself.  I did do it before, though.  I honestly don't know how, but I did.