Weigh In - 268

Weigh in today: 268

Down 1 pound.

You really don't want to know how many times I re-weighed myself today. Mainly because I wanted to challenge the scale. One pound? I stay on track all week and lose one stinking pound?

How is it I was eating like crap (OK not crap, but I was eating more) before and lost more?

UGH. Well, OK that's actually not true. So far I've lost 6 pounds this month. That's not too shabby. December I lost 2, and it was a month of NOT staying on track so well.

I don't know which is better, really, but I do think it is good to have a nice, disciplined streak now and again. I'm not feeling like giving up at all, or cheating.

Besides the scale, yesterday I was at one of my kids' sporting events, and I was moving around the gym, taking pictures and cheering them on - when I realized - I felt smaller.

I felt it.
In the way I sat Indian-style. I was considerably more comfortable yesterday than I was a month ago. My legs tucked nicely. I rolled that over my brain for a bit, contemplating it.

After a while I stretched my legs out in front of my and braced myself on my arms behind me.

Another lightbulb went off. I was comfortable. It wasn't strained at all, but a very comfortable position to relax into.

This was quite interesting.


Reminding myself that the scale isn't the only indicator of a changed body. Even though I feel like I should have lost a gazillion pounds for being good and staying on track, I look at yesterday's NSV, and am thankful that there are other ways of achieving noticeable changes in my body.

At 268, I'm only a couple pounds away from my lowest low, and four pounds away from my next goal.

I am confident I will break that weight barrier. It looks like it might take about a month.

I feel close to breaking another clothing barrier. My clothes all feel pretty good on me, and are starting to feel loose again - Like before they were tight, not they're comfortable, and they are getting comfortable loose, some of my pants. That is excitiing!

 Although, I have to be honest. I took some updated progress pictures today, and besides being horrible - they really didn't look all that different. If I were to cite a difference I would say the woman in the 2nd set (the ones from today) is much, much older, and has lost some of her tan.


Left is at 285. My fat rounds me out a bit more. I feel saggier without it. Right is at 268. Same pants. I am a bit encouraged that my stomach doesn't seem to hang anymore than it did before. The second one makes me look taller, too. But I haven't grown, hee.


Misc Mom said...

I don't know if it is the same for you but in 2010 when I lost 55lbs in 4 months I did no exercise. AT ALL. But like I said, I lost 55lbs in 4 months.

This time around the weight is coming off slower but I am exercising. It sounds counter intuitive but if you think about it, it doesn't really.

So if you are not exercising you are just losing fat but not adding any muscle to help eat away at the fat. If you ARE exercising and adding long lean muscle you are displacing the fat. (it is a bunch of bologna that muscle weighs more than fat - 5lbs of muscle weighs the same as 5lbs of fat - it's still 5lbs) However, if you gain 5 lbs of muscle and lose 6lbs of fat it will show on the scale that you only lost one pound, while miraculously losing a ton of inches. Google 5lbs of fat vs 5lbs of muscle. The difference in size is Carazzzyyyyy!

Anyhoo, sorry for the long winded post. I just wanted to say don't get discouraged by the scale. It isn't all about the numbers. It is about how you feel, how your clothes fit and just being healthy.

Proud of you and looking forward to seeing your continuous progress!

Anonymous said...

6 pounds is good. And the month isn't over yet either!!

Lori said...

I think your stomach looks flatter in the second picture. We're all too hard on ourselves, I'm sure.

Relish those NSV's. Use them to keep your momentum going.

I thought you might like to know that I had a dream the other night, that I went to a buffet and they had all types of baked grapefruit! LOL!!!

Bonita Gordita said...

Misc. Mom - You are SO right. How can I preach this kind of stuff to my own kids, and then disregard it when it comes to myself. I really do not know. Thank you for pointing that out. I have to let that sink in a little bit, and let myself really remember that... muscle replacing fat.

LOL. Very true, Scribbles.

Lori - oh NO. I do not want a buffet of baked grapefruits, nooooooo. Ha. If I'm dreaming, at least I want some fats, grease, salt, and sugar. Ha.