Life Update - Weigh In

Hello. Just doing a quick check-in.

The most important: my weight.

254 was the last registered weight. That's fine by me. I mean, yeah, I'd rather lose, but I'm very thankful that I'm not gaining because I could jolly well be doing that since I feel like I'm not paying much attention to what I'm eating and I've had more beer than anyone should be allowed on a "low carb" way of eating.

I'm a few days into my new job. I'm tired, yes. But I'm also excited to be doing something different. I don't really feel like I'm working sometimes - but it is a very busy job, and there are times where I feel like I'm completely screwing up constantly. I'm not accustomed to having a line of people to see me, but I'll have to get used to it I guess.

So far I've had help/someone training me. Now I'm on my own.

My days start earlier than I'd like (I'm so NOT a morning person). I guess the alternative would be me working until 6pm. I don't want to do that, either. Trade offs.

So far I haven't really missed out on anything but sleep and watching Netflix. But I'm only a few days in. The paycheck will be helpful, surely.

My eating is a pain. My other job was 5hrs per day (the new one is 8), and I was able to get a breakfast in, and any lunch I wanted. This one I have a break, but it's still very busy, and my prep-times are much smaller. So I worry a bit about making lunches/snacks 5 days a week and having them be low carb appropriate, but I'll try to take it day by day and not fret too much over it. That just makes things worse.

Hope everyone out there is doing well. I regret I'm unable to be doing my blog surfing like I used to. I'm accustomed to a pretty cush life of having days at home, and being able to be online at my old job (not really surfing blogs, but Facebook, email, etc.).

A New Job

I haven't posted in a while, but I don't think anyone's noticed. It's been so quiet lately.

I've been hanging in there "maintaining" within 5 pounds. But I feel fatter, and less happy in my clothing. Maybe that's a good thing. I'm hoping that I can continue to lose some weight over the next few months. Twenty pounds and I would feel so much better in my clothes, my skin, I think.

But I'm definitely concerned because I have not been able to break the 250s (I'm 255 right now). I can't imagine dropping my calories lower right now, either. We'll see.

Again, I'm hoping my body has reset itself at 250 (instead of 290), and that I can break this number soon.

Beyond my weight, I've been enjoying myself, going to the kid's games, out at social events. I love fall, the colors, the changes... but I'm a bit sentimental at how quickly things are changing, the kids are growing up. It's brought out a lot of emotions in me.

I got the job, well one of the jobs. It is a change from part time to full time. I'm nervous at that. It will take up more of my life. I'm not so much a "career person" but more of a homemaker who likes to have a small job on the side. This will change things. However, the job I am taking is in a field that I've wanted to break into for the past 5 years and haven't been able to. So, as much as there are some discomforts about it, it could be a launching pad for me.

Exciting, nervous, sad.

I'm mourning my time that I have. Right now I have days off when the kids are in school and I'm at home. I get a lot done on those days, cooking, meal-planning. That's all going to go away. Right now I'm home when they get home from school. That will all go away too. For the first time in my life my husband will get home before me. I'm abnormally envious of that.

I question if I'm giving up too much, chasing something that isn't for me. But I also know we need the money.

So there's lots of feeling surrounding it. My excitement at leaving the job I'm at now --where I love the people but hate the system-- almost trumps my fears and concerns about what I'm taking on.

We'll see.