I Think I'm Going To Quit My Job

I said it.  I know I have to, I just don't know how or when.  I know that, optimally, it would be nice to do it and have a break.  Maybe a month.  It would be hard (financially), but I think that's where I'm at mentally and emotionally.  If I don't do it soon I might have a nervous breakdown.

It's hard because I sincerely love it.  I'm proud of what I do, I do a good job, and I enjoy it.  I add value to the workplace.

But my reasons for needing a change are larger than my reasons for staying.  They mean more to me.

I hope that I don't look back and regret it, but I don't think I will.  I regret the time I would have away from my family for the next few years, and that is time I will never get back.  I don't need to be with them every second, but I do want to be there for the milestones, the dinners.  The long run, if I can.  There will be time in my life, I suppose, for a full-time job, or one that takes more of me than my off-time life - but now isn't the time.

It's going to take strength in me to do this.

On another note, I haven't lost any weight since the beginning of the month.  It started out looking promising, but I'm no better off half-way through.  I'm disappointed.  Frustrated.  I'm starting to get depressed, wanting to just curl up in a ball and not move for a long, long time.

I don't know if a shift in schedule (my job) will be what I need.  I really don't.

Decent Week

This week (well starting July 1st) I was able to track all of my food with about 95% accuracy.  I'm happy with that.  It's a step in the right direction.  I didn't do perfect on my eating, but I did better.  I also did better on my movement.

This is good.  I feel better about things.

One thing that helped, I have to admit, is my short week.  I worked Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and then had off Friday - Monday.

Another "nail in the coffin" for me at my current job.  I need to get out of there as soon as possible.  My husband would be Ok with me quitting tomorrow, if that's what I said I wanted to do.  But I really would like to have something lined up.  I hope I don't regret not quitting now.  I'll see.

We did a lot this weekend.  Things I haven't been able to muster up the energy to do since I started working. I slept in for FOUR DAYS.  We went out walking almost every day - not always a "fitness walk" but just outside, doing things, rather than sitting at home all day exhausted.  It felt really good.