I'm Trying

I have to re-evaluate a lot of things.

But 20 pounds ago, I felt 100% better. It's not just the will or the want or the desire. Or maybe it is. I want it, but I'm as determined as I've been before. My will is weak.

Like I said in my last post, I'm just tired.  I've committed to more than I should have with taking this job, and though I love the work, I'm consumed by it. Monday through Friday, and for part of the time on Sunday - it consumes me.  I'm not one of those people that can work and then go work out, and still keep my sanity and my family.

Actually, I don't know what kind of person I am.

Maybe the kind that needs to have her jaw wired shut.