271 - Feeling Twitchy

Another pound gone.
Feeling twitchy.

338 was my high
198 is my major goal (getting below 200)

271 is where I am

Other goals on my docket:

getting below 270
getting below 265 (have not done this)

As I'm looking at my numbers I'm realizing that the difference between 338 and 198 is 140 pounds.

Cut that in half and you get 70.

I'm 4 pounds away from being halfway to my goal.

Something like that.

I'm hitting major strides, though I feel kind of guilty along the way.

My progress has been slow, but it continues to progress. I use my calories as a marker. However, the past week or so I've felt fatter. I've felt like I've gained weight. But the scale says differently. I'm trying to trust that, but I'm also paying attention to the fact that I don't feel smaller right now. I may be bloated, but I may be saggy. I just don't know. To me, it seems like my clothes hung more last time I was at this weight (or around this weight), but that might have been when I hit my "low" of 265. I still have 6 pounds to go to hit that. Maybe I will feel a major difference.

It isn't a scale "plateau" but rather a clothes-fitting one. Shall be interesting.

I've not done spectacular with my eating, but I continue to manage. I felt good about the couple days where I really could have went off track and didn't. One was at a friend's house, watching the football game. I could have downed a bottle of wine and 2000 calories of food just in that short time, but I had 2 glasses of wine, and maybe 800-1000 calories of food. It doesn't sound like anything great, but for me it was progress. I didn't feel deprived at all and I woke up feeling no guilt.

Today we went out to lunch, though, and I know I went over calories. But I did skip the fries, and split a dessert.

Compromise.

Yet, I still feel twitchy. I don't want to "compromise" too terribly much because I don't feel at all like I'm in a place where I need to slow down or anything. I worry a bit that if I get too comfortable with compromising too much, the scale will surely show it. It's like playing roulette.

Another one of my downfalls is socialization surrounding cocktails and good food, and keeping on track while doing that. I enjoy being social, but I don't enjoy having to stuff myself into my clothes.

I really want to see this scale below 270, and soon.

Last week I purchased EA Sports Active. I really need something I can do in my house, and read a lot of good reviews on it. I went with the first version rather than the second one because reviewers seemed to like it better. I haven't had a chance to try it yet, though, because my kids ruined our nun chuck  So I had to purchase a new one. I hope to get into it on Wednesday, though. Will let you know what I think.

Have a great start to your week!

2 comments:

Lori said...

I like to set those little mini goals too. It does something for me mentally. You'll get to each of them and to your ultimate goal. It may take longer than you like, but you'll get there.
Lori

Elenamary said...

congratulations! half way to your goal! fantastic!