Today's weigh in wasn't a big surprise. I knew that along with it being Hump Day, it was also right around the time I expected my Monthly Friend. And WAZAAAAM! there it is. I'm trying to take things in stride and not freak out about no loss this week. Keep on, keeping on.
I've been doing pretty good with everything, staying on plan. Some days it's harder than others. Some days I'm really not hungry at all, and others (like yesterday), I was famished. But it's nothing like the ongoing crazy grazing, endless pot when I'm eating carbs and sweets. Nothing like that.
As much as I really don't like low-carb, and would love to stick to just eat what I want under a certain amount of calories - I think it's what my body needs. Maybe in a maintenance phase (like that will ever happen, my who life is attaining, not maintaining, lol), but I think I have to be a 90% low-carb/higher-fat kind of person.
I do allow myself Atkins shakes. I do allow myself some beer here and there. But I've been pretty good at not having sweets, even chocolate. I won't say it's easy.
The past couple weeks at work have been horrific. Monday I came home determined to finish off the couple of wine bottles I had left - totally didn't care. It was horrible. You know when you get super angry at someone and you're shaking afterwards? That's how I feel sometimes when I get done with work. I want to run out of there so fast.
I'm getting better at leaving work at work, though.
I'm still trying to figure out what exactly I'm "learning" through this whole experience with this job.
Basically I feel like I've learned how to hold on to small things and limp through life. Not so great. But I also know if I ever said, ENOUGH and quit, I'd have my husband's understanding and support. So, we'll see. I don't plan on quitting, but I'm holding on for my new manager to be hired, and hoping that this could still turn out to be a Dream Job for me.
You never know.
In other news - I did my first 5K! It was fun. I walked it. But I DID it. Something different. I can't say I'm addicted or anything, or that this is the start of me doing more and more. They're expensive and I still can't entirely get over paying to walk a course. But it was something I wanted to do, and never seemed to be able to get myself to just DO.
I haven't been walking or doing much of any exercise, though I've been quite active. My fitbit charger is lost somewhere in the house, so I've been without that all week, which sucks a bit.
Well, off to work. Happy Hump Day!