I'm being a rebel and not weighing in today. I'll do that Wednesday.
Not for any real reason, although I should be (and usually am) consistant. But, the kids are home and I just didn't do it. I weigh myself in the morning, before I eat, and it's harder to do that with everyone home.
I don't expect anything good, either, coming from the scale. In fact, if I don't gain, I'll be lucky. I had a good week, but the weekend... not so much.
Long haul, long haul.
No big goals or expectations for this week, besides staying on track. We went to dinner last night and I had a semi-splurge day. I don't feel like I really went buck wild, but from about 6pm Saturday through Sunday evening, I wasn't such a good girl.
I'd like to buy a new scale. Right now I'm kind of married to my Wii for weighing myself and I don't really like it. It's kind of a pain to have to hook it up every time I want to use it, and I also don't trust it completely.
That said, I like how it is interactive with me, to some degree (besides asking me reasons for my weight gain). It keeps track of things for me, and I don't have to think about it. We'll see. I just made a different purchase, and we have a vehicle that needs fixing - so it might have to wait.
I came in January 2013 at 272 and I will be frustrated with myself if I leave at that weight, or can't get below 270. I probably shouldn't hold myself to such a hard degree, but I need to see some progress in myself or I am concerned frustration will set in.
All that means is that I need to step things up. I've had my "free" or "splurge" days, and I think I might have to tell myself that I can not have any more of those for the rest of the month. That's only 11 days. You'd think I should be able to handle 11 days of that. One would think.
So I start my 11 DAY CHALLENGE. That might be something I need to do more of - challenge myself. In bursts. I don't have any big events coming up, and I've used up my passes for the month of January I would think. I don't know. Can I make it through the next 11 days without a splurge/off day?
Maybe that should be my only goal - to get through 11 days with no "free/splurge/off" days.
It doesn't seem that long, but then it seems like it is.
Basically that would mean I can eat anything I want - as long as I stay within my calorie range, and I journal every day.
It scares me to put that kind of pressure on myself, strangely. Hmm. But like I said, I should be able to handle it. I've done it before without thinking about it.
As I look at my calendar and count my days, my eyes wandered up to the to top of my calendar, with the photograph, and the words, "Peace! Be strong now; be strong."
And said, O man greatly beloved, fear not: peace be unto thee, be strong, yea, be strong. And when he had spoken unto me, I was strengthened, and said, Let my lord speak; for thou hast strengthened me.
I can do this.