Weigh in: 267

I don't even want to believe my scale, but I'll let it be. If it's wrong, I'll find out.

No, I didn't buy a new one yet, either.

And I didn't have a stellar week. At all.

I think I worked out once and it was pretty gentle. Yesterday I did a lot of walking, but it wasn't working out.

I've been SO tired. So incredibly tired. And indifferent. I've not let everything go to the wind, but I did go out to the Chinese Buffet yesterday, and I did go out for drinks and appetizers another day.

But when I think on it, the day I went for drinks and an appy, I ate lighter/normal in the day, ate before I left, had an appy and 2 drinks. I didn't gorge.

Yesterday I ate reasonably, walked a LOT, and ate decently at the buffet - not great choices, just less volume.

But I need to reel it in again. Maybe a short burst of willpower to round this month out.

My goal was to get out of March under 260. I don't know that that is possible anymore. I've only lost one pound this month, and gained one, too.

I'm not sure why my body tends to stall out right here, right at this point all the time. I suppose I shouldn't have canceled my appointment with a nutritionist on Thursday? Maybe I could have asked. I just didn't have a good feeling about it, and I can't waste my sick-time and worries on it.

Possibly it is mental? But I've been at this weight THREE TIMES and never dipped below it. I'll have to do some Googling on it. My body maybe is feeling a starvation-mode, and is fighting against me right now. I really do not know. I just know that I've been successfully able to get here three times and have never successfully been able to jump the hurdle to the other side.

Oh how I would like to see the other side.

I'll have to examine my thoughts and actions to get to the bottom of it. I know I've been having CRAVINGS galore lately, and have very little energy. It is frustrating.

Let's hope I can break this barrier.