It always frustrates me when someone is waiting for me when I come into work. I usually try to get to work a half hour early just to get settled, get my tea -- just get ready for the day. And sometimes there's a person just standing there. Waiting.
What I want to do is point to the sign indicating the office's hours, walk past, and shut the door. I'm not getting paid during that time. That's MY time. I need it. I come early to have it. The worst is my boss shares an office with me, and sometimes I get things thrown at me the second I walk in the door. "When I get settled." I try to say - hint, hint. It works some of the time.
I just know I need that time. I know it about myself. But I can't make the world understand this. Anyway. This was on my mind this morning.
MY WEIGH IN SUCKS!!!!!
Son of a biscuit, I can't believe it. Literally on week 3 of tracking my food and that scale isn't budging at all. It's really hard not to just give in and be this:
I knew it was coming because I weigh myself almost daily. It's seriously nuts. I KNOW I've been eating less than normal. I know it. I've been consciously moving more and eating less, and it's been going on three weeks and nothing has changed. I just need to document that. 'Cause I actually go back and read this stuff sometimes.
I have no idea why the scale hasn't changed.
My eating has been lower carb. This past week it's been under 100 carbs. I literally can't drop my calories any more than I have. To maintain my weight it tells me I need to eat under 2700 calories (I'm a big girl). I don't think I've eaten 2700 calories in 3 weeks (maybe one day I did?). I surely haven't this pas week, and I've been moving a lot more.
Not to mention I'm starving. That's frustrating, but I'm literally starving many of the days.
Here's the interesting part - I feel better. Maybe it's cutting out the sugars, breads, wheats? Maybe it's other things? But I feel better, my attitude has been better. I have no idea what it is, but I like that.
But, I really need to lose weight. I really need to have my clothes feel better. I've been focusing so much on this tracking/eating thing, it's SO frustrating to have the needle stay the same. I could be not focusing on it, eating what I want, and have the needle stay the same. I mean, that's what I've been doing for the last how long?!
I'm not giving up, but I can't lie and say that it's not disheartening. How can I plateau right now?